Pea Notes
Hey, fancy this: Clyde Barrow had a thing
for sweet peas (creamed) and Buck’s wife
Blanche did shampoos and perms and cuts
at The Cinderella Beauty Shoppe in Denton.
In Blanche’s My Life with Bonnie & Clyde,
written in prison, the juice is in the sides.
This morning, I saw Upstairs LeeAnn off
to Germany. (There’s a Downstairs one, too.)
Upstairs LeeAnn, the way she looks (auburn)
and cooks (cakes) and trails a heavenly scent:
Yum. No, scent is too strong. When she’s near,
you know and feel warm. In Blanche Barrow’s
autobio, there’s a lot of crooning over husband
Buck (honestly, gets to be a bit much). But the
editor’s notes (hot chocolate) and flourishes (with
marshmallows) swoon me. End of the day, it’s
the tiny treats I keep. Seeing Loretta Lynn live
in Honolulu and, back in high school, friend
Mike and I chirping, “I’m raising black-eyed peas
and blue-eyed babies . . . prayin’ for weather”
down in the rec room on Rainbow View Drive.
(Mike’s dead before I catch the sweet irony
of his growing up on a rainbow.) Mike,
his parental units, and dog Ginger. Tupperware
soaking in the sink for hours. Dad working at the P.O.,
packing Mike’s peanut butter and jellies. If bibles
have a smell, there’s that mixed in as well.
And somewhere the secret sadnesses
absorbed in green shag carpet, parents who dote
on their only child (the idea of him) though
they never really see him. Whole.
When Mike’s grown, out of the closet,
his mom once impulsively asked,
“Are you ever tempted to cut it right off?”
(A lot to unpack, huh . . . )
After that, he stayed away for a while.
But all our lives, Mike and me, we’re full
of guffaws and squelched guffaws
that happen when you should absolutely NOT
guffaw. Sitting shiva for his partner Paul, to
name one. Good God, the rabbi’s high strung
“May the Hebrews gather . . .” before heading
full-tilt nasal into the Kaddish. Horrified, we
bit our cheeks, eyes spilled water, mouths
contorted with explosive snorts. Oh well, it’s
the flamingoes that open the dance,
right? Did I mention: Mr. Clyde also liked French
fries? (peas, no peas—who knows). BTW, Mike
would love both my LeeAnns. (There’s always
room for more.) Tonight I munch perfect
strawberries Upstairs gifted me before a white Uber
whisked her and her three black suitcases away.